Ring: Pessary -revisited

Last December, I had a ring fitted to address stress incontinence problem. Most of the times i believed it helped a lot. Sometimes though, I wonder if it really addressed the actual stress problem. Anyway, I was happy for a while.


That was until I had the great fly through the air and landed on my bottom few weeks ago which left me at the embarrassing end of a walking stick to aid me up the stairs in school.


For a while, I thought I was done. First it was shingles and then the knee crunching touchdown. Well, I am still waiting for the outcome of the MRI done last month. The orthopedist warned me to be prepared for the another major surgery - the spine. That was enough to plunge anyone into despair.


To make matters worse, after the touchdown event, I started having pain in the lower abdomen. It got worse and I had to resort to taking celebrex. However, it got so bad on Thursday and I spent the whole night counting the hours for morning to come. Friday was Wesak day and I was not sure if the nearest gynae clinic [which is in Mentakab] would be opened. I called the clinic and thank God, it was opened.


My son smsed earlier that he was coming home on Friday. First I thought of waiting for him to arrive and then go to the clinic with him. However, the pain became unbearable and I had to drive myself. Called Pae to ask if she knew the place since she is a local there.


Took celebrex before starting the drive to Mentakab, about 60 km away. Had trouble keeping my eyes open along the journey. Reached Pae's place and she ended up driving me to the clinic and insisted on accompanying me. Thanks Pae. I really really appreciate the company.


Turned out I had a slight infection and the gynae advised me to remove the ring.


It was such a great feeling of relief the moment the ring was taken out. The abdominal pain subsided immediately


Then he sent me home with a 5-day course of antibiotics.


And here I am, 11 hours after the first dose of antibiotics. I have not taken any painkiller since and the pain is getting duller by the minute.


Thank you Pae for being there.


My son arrived in the evening. We went out for dinner. He had Nasi Goreng USA and I had grilled chicken.


One old lady is happy again.

Down Memory Lane: The Pain

Read a friend's blog. Left comments here and there. On one posting, my comment was the lyrics of Broery Marantika's Senandung Rindu [youTube here]. The blogger's response about the intense feeling portrayed by the lyrics triggered  a long lost memory.


Gosh! To dream but not make dreams your master. To think but not make thoughts your aims. To watch the things you gave your life to ... broken.  And stoop and build 'em up with worn out tools. To heap all your winnings, and risk it all on one pitch-and-toss, and lose and start again at your beginnings, and never breathe a word about your loss. And to force your heart and nerves and sinews to serve your turn long after they are gone. And to hold on when there's nothing in you except the will which says to them ... "hold on"


And after ALL those, you lose to a GRO. The pain was and still is indescribable.


If I should stay
I will only be in your way
So I'll go but I know
I'll think of you
Every step of the way


And I will always love you
i will always love you
My darling you


Bitter sweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So goodbye
Please ... don't cry
We both know
I'm not what you need


I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you'll find 
All you've wished for
And I wish you joy and happiness
But above all these
I wish you love

Hari Guru 2010

Sempena hari Guru 2010, Kementerian Pelajaran menganjurkan GOTONG ROYONG PERDANA.


Seorang guru memulakan hari kerja dalam kelas dengan memastikan kelas bersih dan teratur dan semua pelajar berada di tempat masing masing beruniform lengkap mengikut peraturan. Menjadi tugas guru juga memastikan setiap pelajar BERSIH dan SIHAT.


Kalau lantai dan tingkap kotor, cikgu perlu pastikan kekotoran tersebut dibersihkan terlebih dahulu sebelum memulakan pelajaran. Semenjak jadi cikgu dari1982, sekali sekala aku sendiri menyapu lantai kelas dan membersihkan debu di tingkap bila ingatan pada pelajar seperti mencurahkan air ke daun keladi. Kononnya nak mengajar melalui teladan.Hampehhhh!!! 


Heran sungguh aku. Pengalaman aku di negara orang putih, tukang cuci mencuci segala permukaan dan celah hingga  berkilat. Tukang kebun amat bangga dengan hasil kerja tangan mereka. Bukan setakat potong rumput dan cantas pokok, malah mereka amat teliti menjaga keseluruhan 'sistem' laman/taman/kebun. Termasuk longkang dan tangga/bangku taman, air pancut dan sebagainya. Berbeza amat dengan tukang kebun kat tanah tumpah darah ku ini. 


Setengah dari mereka jadi tukang kebun kerana masa sekolah dulu mungkin jenis yang suka ponteng kelas. Bila kerja pun biasanya masalah disiplin mereka tetap sama. Kalau bukan ponteng waktu, 'ponteng' tugas. Masa aku di Gemencheh N9, tukang kebun datang kerja pukul 8.00 pagi tapi selepas jam 10.00 pagi dia dah pergi kerja luar ... kedai tayar.


Tak seperti sekarang di mana tukang sapu dan tukang kebun bekerja untuk kontraktor pembersihan, dulu, mereka ni berjawatan pekerja am. Bergaji bulanan, tetap dan berpencen. Boleh tuntut elaun kerja lebih masa. Jawatan pekerja am termasuklah budak pejabat dan pembantu makmal. Masa aku di Dabong, hari pertama ke sekolah dengan keretapi, aku duduk menghadap  [dalam koc keretapi dulu dulu, tempat duduk terakhir dipasang] seorang perempuan muda bergincu merah. Seorang pemuda duduk di sebelahnya.


P= Pemuda;    PGM=Perempuan gincu merah


P  : Kerja ke?


PGM: Ha ah.


P  : Kerja kat mana?


PGM: I staff kat  sekolah .... 


Memang aku selalu jumpa perempuan gincu merah kat pejabat sekolah duduk di sebelah meja yang salah ... maksudnya bukan sebelah bekerja tapi sebelah pelawat. Masa tu umur aku baru 27 tahun ... ta'kulan aku tidak anggun ... sekadar ada mata tengok, ada telinga dengar, ada mulut diam. Hanya bila aku terpaksa menumpang di asrama, barulah aku tahu dia tukang sapu asrama. Itupun bukan kerana NAMPAK dia menyapu tapi teman sebilik yang bagitau. Hampir setahun aku di situ ... memang setiap hari lah aku jumpa dia DUDUK di pejabat bukan nya membersihkan asrama.


Tujuan cerita aku ni hanyalah nak meluahkan rasa sedih yang teramat sangat kerana tahun ini, sempena Hari Guru, para guru di kerah bergotong royong membersihkan kawasan sekolah. Ini termasuklah longkang dan tandas. Memanglah gotong royong bersama pelajar, tapi cuba bayangkan jika dalam kelas pun, walaupun setelah mengajar melalui teladan, guru menyapu lantai membersihkan tingkap, namun masih gagal menerapkan nilai kebersihan kepada pelajar, ingat bila buat gotong royong pelajar akan berebut rebut membersihkan tandas yang telah mereka kotorkan? 


Rasa sayu sangat.


Terasa betapa nilai penghargaan kepada guru seperti sampah.


Menyedihkan!